There just doesn't seem to be enough time in the day. I'm busy taking care of my family, doing household chores, going to school events and working on my book. All of this begins to stress me out and I begin to realize that I'm not taking care of myself.
Before my correct diagnosis, my life was stressful, but a different kind of stress. I was dealing with figuring out who was willing to drive my kids to their activities or how I would manage the housework when I could barely walk from one side of the kitchen to the other.
These days, I'm busy doing things that I always heard other mothers complain about. And from time to time, I'm finding myself joining in their rant. I have to stop this negativity now! I am beyond grateful for all of my new found abilities even though they can overwhelm me from time to time. I shouldn't forget that I'm human. It's not necessary to let all the pressures of being the perfect mom and wife get to me. My family loves and appreciates me for who I am and what I'm able to do or not do. Now it's time for me join them in loving the the person that they call "mom."
This has been a long, busy day and I am exhausted. I feel like I was a crazy woman running around trying to get errands done, pack, laundry, make dinner and decorate John's birthday cake.
It is hard to believe that this little guy turned two today!!! Honestly, it's just hard to believe that he's here. I never thought we would be able to have a third child. And here he is, healthy and cute as ever!
I may be exhausted and ready to go to bed right now (it's not even 8 p.m.), but when I think about all I was able to accomplish today, I feel like celebrating even more!! I love my life. I love my husband. And, I love my kids! I'm so blessed to have a wonderful family.
This past weekend, I had a great time at the cabin with some friends. We shopped, ate lunch out, mini golfed, chatted by the fire and laughed until our stomachs hurt. The whole time, I kept thinking about how lucky I was to be able to do these things from early in the morning until late at night. I was up until 2am! I wasn't able to do that when I was a teen! The real gift though is the friendships that I have with these women. I am truly blessed.
I have been trying to put myself out there on different social media sites in hopes of creating a group of followers (that's what publishers and literary agents want to see). I have joined Twitter, created my own Facebook page., started this website and most recently joined Happify. I have never been a techy person, but somehow I have managed to figure all these sites out!
Since joining Happify, just one week ago, I have had two of my posts selected for the "Featured" section and one of them was even in the #1 slot for "Popular" posts. I really hope that I can gain the following I need to land a literary agent. More than anything, I want others to hear my story so they can take a step back and really think about all the wonderful LITTLE things in life they have to be thankful for. Plus, I know deep in my heart that there are other children and adults out there trapped in their own body because they are misdiagnosed, like I was for 33 years! No one should have to live like that and I am determined to help spread the word as much as I can. .
I feel like I have fallen off the face of the Earth when it comes to blogging. I have been so focused on my book, creating this website, transferring all my posts onto this site and being a mom (which keeps me the most busy). Now that I've got this site pretty much together, I plan on blogging 3 times a week again.
I'm not going to lie, I've been pretty stressed out from everything I've been trying to do these past two weeks. My DRD is greatly affected by stress, so typing was an issue which is part of the reason I haven't been blogging. My balance was off and I was heading to bed earlier than usual. But, enough about that!!! Let's focus on the positive. :)
I want to get back in the groove of sharing my blessing with you. Today was a busy, but rewarding day. I went to the YMCA and participated in the hour long Bodyflow class, finished transferring all my blog posts onto this site (that was a HUGE relief), made a nice dinner and went on a three mile walk. Back in the day, none of these would have been possible. Not a ONE!! And for that, I am beyond grateful!
After living the first 33 years of my life thinking I had Spastic Diplegia, a form of Cerebal Palsey, I was correctly diagnosed with Dopa Responsive Dystonia (DRD). I am on new medication and doing things that I never imagined possible. This has changed the lives of my husband and two daughters. I truly believe that I am living a miracle each and every day. Life can't get any better than this!