There are several messages that I share in my presentations: the importance of support systems, using certain tools to maintain a positive attitude, keeping your faith and not giving up hope, no matter how challenging some days can seem! And over the past 2 years, I had many days where I really had to push myself to get out of bed.
Steve and I divorced this past year. It was the hardest year of my life and there were many days that I wondered, Will I be happy again? Will the tears ever stop? Should I keep speaking? How long will the bitterness in my heart last? And as someone who speaks on positivity, I thought Jean, you’re such a fraud!
Well, I did get through it. I am happy again. Yes, the tears did stop when I let go of the bitterness. And I wouldn’t be where I am today if it wasn’t for my supportive family, friends and talking through all of my feelings with a mental health professional.
I’m sure by now, you’re wondering. What happened? Since receiving my correct diagnosis, I became more independent and quickly grew and changed as a person, and he didn’t grow with me. This was something I feared when my life changed overnight. And it was something I thought about as we prepped for The Today Show interview. Yet, I hold no regrets!
I have always believed that God has a plan for each and every one of us. And this was part of His plan. I still give thanks every time I receive an e-mail from someone across the globe stating they saw my story and are now able to walk. And I don’t regret marrying Steve, because without him, I wouldn’t have my children.
But the past two years have changed me yet again. Isn’t that what life is all about? When I wake, I thank God for my life. And as I drift off to sleep, I thank Him for the blessings that He put before me during the day. Yes, going through the divorce was more painful than all the surgeries and medical procedures combined that I had as a child, but I made it. And I’m stronger and more confident because of it! I am so glad that I didn’t give up! And I thank my family and friends for standing beside me, every step of the way.