My guess is that no one out there really enjoys going to the doctor and I'm no different. I have been battling a horrible cold for nearly two weeks, but was pretty sure it was turning into a sinus infection last week. I knew I should have gone to the doctor to get it checked out, but with all my experiences with doctors, I dreaded it. My fear when going to see a new doctor is that I will be told, "this is just in your head." Yes, I have a fever and I feel like my head is going to explode, but I've heard this line before and I don't ever want to hear those words again.
About 10 years ago, I was being seen being seen by a neurologist who was over seeing my Bachlphen pump. Under his care, I went down hill faster that I thought possible. My independence was ripped away from me. I couldn't walk anywhere without assistance and began to actually become nervous to leave my house, even with the help of a family member or friend. When I expressed my feelings to the neurologist his response was blunt, "This is all in your head." And because I trusted him, I believed him. Sad, but true. Luckily, my husband and mom didn't think he was right and brought me to a new doctor where she listened to every word I said and believed me (which is how I got to where I am today, a correct diagnosis)!
Yes, I dread going the doctor and fear being told that I'm crazy, but I had to put those irrational fears to the side this morning and went to urgent care. The physician was very kind and listened to my concerns the way that most doctors do. I need to remember that there are more good doctors out there than bad and go to the doctor sooner than later.
I'm really not sure where the time has gone. How can it be that my baby is 13 today? It feels like yesterday, that I was miserable being pregnant and nervous to give birth.
My spastic muscles made carrying a baby for 9 months extremely difficult. I had horrible morning sickness that really lasted all day long and my walking was extremely limited. Plus, Steve had to do nearly everything for me: get me dressed, help me use the bathroom and feed me. My independence was gone, but I'd do it all over again because the result was one of the best gifts that God has ever given me...Winona.
Sure, pregnancy was difficult and felt like it would NEVER end, but it's something that not everyone is able to experience, no matter how much they want to. In fact, a friend of my husband has been trying to have a baby, but it just hasn't happened for them. Therefore, they are seeking out someone who is looking for a great family for their child. In fact, they have created a FB page in order to share their story and hopefully find a baby.
Please click the button (as well as share) below to read about this wonderful couple who are hoping to adopt. I would love nothing more for them to experience the love that a child can bring to a family.