all in my head

My guess is that no one out there really enjoys going to the doctor and I'm no different.  I have been battling a horrible cold for nearly two weeks, but was pretty sure it was turning into a sinus infection last week.  I knew I should have gone to the doctor to get it checked out, but with all my experiences with doctors, I dreaded it.  My fear when going to see a new doctor is that I will be told, "this is just in your head."  Yes, I have a fever and I feel like my head is going to explode, but I've heard this line before and I don't ever want to hear those words again.  

About 10 years ago, I was being seen being seen by a neurologist who was over seeing my Bachlphen pump.  Under his care, I went down hill faster that I thought possible.  My independence was ripped away from me.  I couldn't walk anywhere without assistance and began to actually become nervous to leave my house, even with the help of a family member or friend.  When I expressed my feelings to the neurologist his response was blunt, "This is all in your head."  And because I trusted him, I believed him.  Sad, but true.  Luckily, my husband and mom didn't think he was right and brought me to a new doctor where she listened to every word I said and believed me (which is how I got to where I am today, a correct diagnosis)!

Yes, I dread going the doctor and fear being told that I'm crazy, but I had to put those irrational fears to the side this morning and went to urgent care.  The physician was very kind and listened to my concerns the way that most doctors do.    I need to remember that there are more good doctors out there than bad and go to the doctor sooner than later.

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